Sometimes I think
there are some things
I shouldn’t have said,
But, if I wouldn’t have heard
maybe I wouldn’t have realized
how untrue they were.
Without their audible utterance,
they would have remained possibly
valid thoughts in my mind.
But the simple sounds of each syllable
revealed their empty deceptive core.
Sometimes I wonder
who was fooled
by the things I’ve said.
I want to know
if they ever carried any weight.
the thoughts were like a heavy downpour,
begging to be released
from the grasp of a dark gray cloud.
I had to let them flow,
but, as they rolled off my tongue,
their substance turned into vapor
and disappeared into the air.
Any meaning they once had
flew away with the wind
never to be seen again.
But at least it’s out of my system.
They’re not poisoning my mind.
They’re not weighing me down.
I know they were lies.
I know it’s not what I meant to say.
I know those words meant nothing.