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Blow Me Away

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Rock me to sleep

as you blow me away

Because your gusts and threats

are what soothe me

until I can see the day.

I feel you surround me.

I know you’re right here.

You haven’t abandoned me just yet

and your menace

is what makes you so dear.

Yes,

I missed you.

It’s been so long

since I’ve heard a creak.

I longed for your cool warmth

and I must admit

it makes me so weak.

Please don’t leave so soon.

Keep your symphony tapping on my window.

Let me fall asleep in your arms

as you make a ruckus

and let your wind blow.

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There’s No Stopping Me Now!

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Happy Birthday!That’s right world… Today, I turn 21.  Some will say I’m officially an adult now.  Others will argue that this the last important birthday I’ll have.  But I’ll just take today as an opportunity to soak in how far I’ve come.  I still remember those days of me being a toddler growing up in Hawaii, knowing nothing more than the life of an Army brat.  I still reminisce about the many sleepless nights I spent with my cousins in New York.  I still recall the years I spent counting down to a day that I would be independent and on my own path.  Yet, here I am.  Twenty-one years into my life, which seems like such a long time and then I remember I’m not even middle-aged yet.  When I think about it, time does seem to go by pretty fast.  All of these memories feel so fresh in mind, but they happened so many years ago… a good chunk of them were even in the 90s!  They’re just another reminder to myself that sometimes I need to slow down and enjoy the moment.

A Buddhist monk once talked about the importance of living in the moment and appreciating the present.  I may not have accomplished everything on my to-do list just yet, but I’ve gotten a lot done so far and I’m proud of myself for that.  I can’t complain about where I am now, but I can’t be satisfied with it either.  The minute I become satisfied will be the minute I get lazy and strive for nothing.  I’m going to appreciate the 21 years I’ve seen so far and this year that I’m living right now, but I surely am going to work toward the future I have waiting for me.

Gonna Do Me

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Just as your choices aren’t in my jurisdiction,

your authority doesn’t rule over my every decision.

I will absolutely respect what you have to say,

but, at the end of the day,

I will decide to live my life my own way.

I’m going to do what I have to.

Progress is the journey,

success is the destination,

and my heart is my compass,

so I don’t cash out on the two cents of others

and I can’t let your thoughts

make me lose focus.

I will always do things

as I think they should be,

so do what you must,

but let me do me.

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Me

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I’m not attempting to be someone I’m not.

I’m just trying to be seen for who I am.

Yes, I’m smart,

but I make mistakes.

I like some structure,

but I appreciate my freedom.

I know how to be appropriate,

but I can’t forget my roots.

Call me and innocent and naive,

but I lived through a few things.

Yeah, I have tough skin,

but I have feelings, too.

I’m the youngest,

but I’m no child.

You may think I’ve changed.

You might believe I’m faking,

but I’m just being me.

If you can’t accept that,

then I guess you don’t know me.

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Welcome the 2013 Resolutions

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2013 is here and now it’s time for the inevitable New Year’s resolutions.  You set a goal for yourself and try to stick to it all year round.  Last year, my resolution was to be the best me I could be.  I was including a more positive mindset, my health, my social life, and my professional goals.  I wanted to progress and grow as much as possible.  Honestly, I think I did a pretty good job at sticking to my goal… and my best friend agrees!  I’ve tried to maintain optimism and forward movement in my life, which has definitely helped me improve as a person, but now it’s time to make a new goal for myself.

Obviously, I have the specific goals of graduating college and all that good stuff, but, more importantly, I want to do a better job of making myself a priority in my life.  I can’t be at my best, if I don’t take care of myself, so I have to make an effort to do so.  This past year, I have certainly given a lot of myself to others to the point that I end up getting burnt out.  It’s nice to help people and you have to make sacrifices in life, but it should never get to the point where you’re not ever benefiting from the situation, so, this year, I’m going to take care of myself and I mean that in every sense.  Let’s make it a good one 2013!

Free Me- Joss Stone

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Joss Stone is definitely one of those unique voices who bring a special, positive energy through the art that they create.  I have always been a fan of hers and just recently my appreciation for Joss Stone was revived when I heard this song, one of my favorites, at the gym.  I’ll let the song speak for itself, but I will say that this song has always helped lift my spirits, so I hope you enjoy Joss Stone’s “Free Me.”

Don’t Judge Me!

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People say this all the time and I must admit that it really bothers me.  I constantly hear it used for comedic purposes or just in casual conversations and, sure, sometimes it’s funny, but, most of the time, not so much.  In my opinion, it’s thrown around too much and I don’t think people are aware of how loaded the statement “don’t judge me” really is.  It says so much about yourself and it says even more about the power you subconsciously give to others.  If you truly respect and love yourself enough to accept who you are as a person, you wouldn’t feel the need to say “don’t judge me” at all.

The first thing that needs to be understood is that you are going to be judged on everything you do, no matter what.  The people you’re telling not to judge you may not do it (most likely because they’re your friends, but I’ll get to that in a bit), but there will always be someone around who’s close enough to judge you.  You’ll be judged on what you wear, how you walk, what you say, and even on what you don’t do.  Regardless of whether or not the words “don’t judge me” are spoken, you’ll still be judged.  If you don’t believe me, think about how many times you think something about a person you see walking down the street.  “This person is walking too slow” or “those boots are cute” are all judgments that we silently make about the people around us.  Like I said, you’ll always be judged, whether you know the person or not or whether you realize it or not.

However, this isn’t as daunting as it sounds because you need to ask yourself if the person judging you matters and if their judgments should affect you or not.  Nine times out of ten, the answer is no.  Your family and friends know you, they love you, and they’ve accepted you for who you are.  Their opinions are the ones that you really care about, but they’re not going to judge you off of your little quirks.  They’re not setting out to pass judgments on you for things, that many times, are considered trivial.  Usually, when you say “don’t judge me,” you’ll realize that the thought of judgment was way out of their minds and there was no need to defend yourself in the first place.  Your friends and family aren’t going to be the judges of your life.

Now, the random observers are a different story.  They’ll be the ones to judge you just like you judge the random people around you, but does it really matter if the girl sitting at the next table isn’t a fan of your hairstyle?  No.  If her opinion didn’t matter before you sat at the table, then there’s no reason for that to change now.  These random observers know nothing about you, except what they see at the present moment.  They don’t know you, but it’s natural to form an opinion about what we see.  So if a random person only knows what they see, of course, they’re going to judge you, but you can’t really blame them for it.  Most importantly, you can’t take to heart what they think of you because it’s probably not even an accurate reflection of who you truly are as a person.

I guess what I’m trying to say is to stop worrying so much about what other people think.  You should do what makes you happy, when you want, and in whatever way you want.  When you say “don’t judge me,” you’re making yourself feel insecure, you’re judging yourself, and you’re allowing other people to take hold of your life.  You should honestly never question what feels right to you and the people who matter won’t make you question that either, so please forget about the words “don’t judge me” before you lose sight of yourself as a person.